Hello, my darling readers! I hope everyone had an amazing holiday break and are ready for what this year has for us!
As some of my friends are starting school again this semester, it has me reminiscing about my college years. Therefore this will be a reminiscing type of blog because I haven’t even been in my full-time adult job for a week but I kinda the old days. I mean I just graduated last December but still. Teehee.
What started out as a last-minute decision became one of the best decisions of my young adult life. This decision was choosing Texas Tech as the university I wanted to go to. The people that I have met, the lessons that I have learned, the trips that I have taken, the mistakes that I have made that I will hopefully never do again, hahaha the list goes on and on. For all of that and then some, I am grateful. I am just going to give y’all highlights of those years not everything because I am saving that for my actual book! Wink wink. So let’s go!
Freshmen Year: Yikes. Babes, we thank Jehovah Jier for growth. I was emotionally constipated. Your girl was saying nonsense like “I have no emotions”, I never cried and I never told anyone what was going on in my life, etc. Soms in 2015 needed professional help and Jesus. Honestly, I was going through the depths of depression and I didn’t even know what it was. By that, I mean that I didn’t even know what depression was. I knew something was wrong but I didn’t know what it was. Kay, enough sadness, the yellows and oranges that freshmen year brought were new friends, my significant other at the time and the freedom I felt being away from home. Your girl was going to parties, staying out late, eating out a lot and making her own money.
Sophomore Year: Y’all…this year was a rollercoaster of emotions. I met some important people that changed my life during this year, took my first trip with just my friends to New Mexico, went to my first concert, spent the summer in Austin, and your girl finally got the professional help she needed! Yes, I started going to therapy. Y’all I was crying at least three times a week. Which was a good thing, there were just so much I needed healing from that I tucked away for so long so yeah. Sophomore year was an emotional rollercoaster but if you were to ask me if I would do it all over again, I would say yes in a heartbeat because it made me who I am today. My sophomore year was good. Let’s end this potion with a reminder that I confessed my feelings for a guy by saying that I had a 13% crush on him, y’all. Can you comment “cringe” if you felt second-hand embarrassment for me? Hahaha, let’s move on.
Junior Year: Let’s start with the fact that the summer before junior I got two tattoos. Babes, I loved my junior year. LOVED IT. I became emotionally aware, and the mask that I wore for so long was finally off. I was open about talking to people about what I was going through, etc. I was introduced to what having a relationship with God is and who he is versus who I thought He was. I met more important people that taught me important lessons about life. I took more trips to New Mexico, Austin and for a spring break, I was in three cities in seven days. My skin was clear, I kinda worked out, your girl’s confidence was building. I got to see Thomas Rhett in concert and HE HELD MY HAND and sang to me as I screamed in his face and I started blogging my junior year. I loved it.
Senior Year: Four and a half years later and I finally got a degree! Senior year was interesting. Not in a bad way, there was just so much going on which caused me to overthink so anxiety popped out a couple of times. A lot of time to be honest with y’all. Many of my friends had already graduated that May and because I was December graduate your girl was out in the 806 feelings all types of lonely. It was honestly not the best emotionally because I was second-guessing myself, my friendships, and what I wanted to do after school, etc. Emotionally it sucked but spiritually God and I were getting closer and He was revealing so much to me about myself so that was good. I also went to New York for the first time, fell in love with Gospel Community, had an internship at Dell Technologies which turned into a full-time job, and I saw Tyler the Creator in concert. Although it was TOUGH, it had its moments of pure bliss, joy and happiness.
I don’t have any regrets. I needed everything that happened to happen to me so that I could be the woman I am becoming. Lubbock is in the middle of nowhere, it has winds that will fully push you around like nothing else, the disrespect was real, there isn’t too much to do unless you look for it, etc. Lubbock doesn’t have much compared to other cities but it has a piece of heart. Eww, that’s so corny, what I am trying to say is that I am grateful for what this place has done for me emotionally, and spiritually. I have met some of the most important people in my life right now because of this place. People that made Lubbock a second home for me. I have learned so much about myself. Good and bad. I have learned a lot about others. I have learned how to love people. I also learned how to two-step. Hahaha, the point is that I have learned a lot and I will carry all those lessons with me into the next city.
Thank you to everyone that made me feel loved and cared for therefore making Lubbock a second home for me.
Until the next time darlings,